Sunday, May 28, 2006
i really wonder what is in for my christian life. i feel like i'm back slidding and i am intentionally letting it happen. it's quite confusing really.

today i missed chariskidz again, and i had guitar duty. it's just so disgustingly irresponsible. jaimie came up to me and asked if i was still interested in serving in chariskidz and i answered in a split second "yes" but as soon as i said it, i really wonder if i do want to continue serving. i mean if i do it half heartedly and as and when i feel like it, it's just making myself look bad. not only to the other teachers but what would God think of me? maybe it is time to take a break and build up my christian life first before i intefere in those of the kids. though deep down inside i know what is keeping me in church is chariskidz and once that's gone, i know so will i.